Bring on 2010...

I have been doing a lot of thinking on what the year 2010 will bring to my family and I. What I do know is I will be a mother of two beautiful little girls, my husband will have his college degree completed, he will begin his search for a permanent job opportunity and location to move us too. So with all that in mind I know I need to set myself some goals that will help this New Year run smoothly!

1. A better Routine: I believe that I need to learn how to manage my time better. I can spend days planning on what needs to get done rather than getting the things done. Being a mother is by no means an easy job. The everyday worries could fill your agenda before you even notice the day is over. I believe if I can learn the ability of better time management it will not only help me have a productive year but as well help my children and husband.
2. A better budget: This one is going to be a hard one for me!! I am the type of person who if I see a pair of heels or an outfit I like, I buy it!! I don’t sit and think about the saving account or the bills while doing. I think about how good it’s going to look and make me feel! I won’t lie..I am very materialistic. So a goal this year is to do better with our money. To think to myself, my daughter doesn’t need any more clothes she has a closet full! Also, by doing this I think it will help relieve some stress.
3. To live a healthier lifestyle: With living in a generation where McDonald’s is 10x’s easier than a full cooked dinner, I think we need to focus more on our health. So as a goal I want to try to live a healthier lifestyle so I can teach my kids that having a balanced diet doesn’t only make you feel better but naturally look better as well.
4. To build a better religious foundation for my girls: I want them to grow up with a wonderful understanding on how important God, prayer, and church is to our lives. As a mother, we want to watch our children grow up with great morals and a balanced life. So I believe if I can try to better my religious beliefs not only for myself but them as well. It will teach them these principles in life that I want to watch them grow up with.
5. To overall be a better wife and mother: As a stay at home mother we sometimes get overwhelmed with responsibility that we really take our wonderful jobs for granted. Yes, there will be times where we want to just runaway and tell our husbands to do our job for just one week and let him see what all we have to do.. But I think I need to realize that if I wasn’t home cleaning, changing, feeding and watching that I would miss things that I will never forget. So I would like to try to appreciate my opportunity more each day!

So all I have to say is bring on the New Year because I am more than ready to see what is in store for our family!

Look it's a VA-JAY-JAY!

We are having a GIRL! I had a feeling the whole time that we would find out that we are welcoming another beautiful princess into this world. Corey is still in denial that Mia is a Mia. It was so cute to when he said "Maybe, he has it tucked!" I thought I was going to die laughing. We are not disappointed at all that we are having another little girl. We are thrilled that things are going so well and that Kerhia will have a sister that will be so close in age. I can't wait till they are old enough to argue over clothes and all that fun stuff!

If you are wondering how Mia is pronounced, it's Me-UH. lol. I have been asked a million times already. I love picking names that people don't always know.

I had a visit at OSU today and my premature specialist said things could not look any better than they do now! I have had some cramping and they had me doing all kinds of crazy things and they believe I have a pulled muscle in my abdominal wall. Which is amazing, I can have as many pulled muscles God wants to give me as long as this pregnancy continues to be good!

Kerhia is able to say "baby" hopefully we can get her to say "Mia" soon! We are hoping that when the baby is born that we will have Kerhia in a toddler bed and have potty training introduced. I believe she will do just fine in a toddler bed but the potty training I believe is not going to easy. She has the I don't care attitude, she will walk around all night long with a dirty diaper if I would let her! Kerhia was in another pageant, a local one. She did really good. She earned 3rd runner up in this pageant.

I am so excited about the fact that I am going to have two beautiful little girls to raise. Play house, dress up and tea parties are going to be my future. The best future I could ask for!

Our visit to OSU.

Due to my crazy pregnancies, my doctor decided to send me to OSU. To see a premature specialist to try to figure out all my crazy events. I did not get the best news in the world but the doctor seemed pretty confident that he would help me as much as possible to have a healthy, hopefully not premature baby. The doctor was wanting my cervix to measure a 30 and when he did the ultrasound scan the cervix measured a 27. Which is not too bad but enough to be alarmed that I am on my way to premature labor. He decided to put me on the progesterone shot that I have to have every week. I was on this shot when I was pregnant with Kain and it did not work. There is no guarantee that the shot will work this time as well. So with tons prayers we are hoping to get positive results.

I have to go up to OSU every Friday to see the doctor there for him to do an ultrasound of my cervix to keep a close eye on it. Which is going to be a struggle cause we have a very tight budget, so we are hoping that all that works out with prayers as well. If my cervix gets to a 20 or lower then I will have to get my cervix sewed. So this is process is going to be a wait and see kind of thing. The doctor also told me that he believes my body is prone to having premature children. With this information Corey and I have decided that this will probably be our last child. This is very hard for since before we had decided that we wanted at least 4...

The doctor at OSU was also able to answer some of my questions that were left unanswered about the death of Kain that helped me better understand. So as this pregnancy moves along we hope for positive outcomes and to have a healthy child that we can bring home and experience the crazy events of being a parent to two beautiful babies!

The Stacy's Halloween.

Halloween is one of my favorite little holidays. The fact that you can get all dressed up and eat all the candy you want without getting yelled at always was fun for me! Well I was so excited for this Halloween. My little girls first time going trick a treating. Well in all but nice words this halloween SUCKED! Mr.h1n1 came to visit mommy, upper resp. infection came to visit daddy and croup and upper resp. infection visited little miss Kerhia! I was pretty sure trick a treating was out of the picture that week. Well Kerhia woke up feeling ALOT better so we decided to let the day playout and see how she does. Well she was doing wonderful. Walking around with her trick a treat basket like she knew what she was doing. TOO CUTE! So we decided she was well enough to hit a few houses on our street. She loved it!!

I can not wait for all the holidays to come, hopefully we have a sickness free home!

So what is your job?..

I am a STAY AT HOME MOM!

So you don't have a job is the question I always get after telling someone that I am a SAHM. Well the answer is yes, I am a mother who stays at home cooks breakfast, lunch and dinner, cleans the house, pay the bills, grocery shop, cut out coupons, raise my kids, do the laundry, and have FUN!

When a child is born their brain is not developed and they learn from their environment in which they are being raised in. In the first five years of a child's life their brain develops more than it ever will in their entire life. So why is it we feel like we should put our child in a daycare? I am at no means criticizing another parents beliefs but I don't fully grasp on why you would not want to do the raising and teaching of your own children?

As a SAHM in this economy I know it is not easy and I understand the struggle. My husband is in college to further his degree so that I can keep my job as a SAHM. We do struggle. We cut out coupons to use at the store, we don't get to see the new movie coming out and we shop in the clearance section. Is the extra money that more important? Think about the monthly daycare bill. That can pay the couple bills that your income covers. Being a SAHM is something I can guarantee your children won't forget. I came from a working mother. That is what made my decision to be a SAHM. I want to be able to talk to my kids about school when they get home and hear about their day. Alot of people seem to think a SAHM is a lazy mom, which is not true one bit. We are moms who have no time for our self other than nap time and bedtime. We work hard to raise our children to be well rounded individuals. I love my JOB, YES IT IS A JOB. THE BEST PAYING JOB, I AM PAID WITH LOVE!

Don't take this blog as rude. I just think SAHM's deserve some credit. I am PROUD to be a SAHM and just wanted to share!

mmm, it's October.

So, if you were to come ask me my favorite season. I would say fall. I love it. There is so much happening this month that I don't know where to begin. First of all, Kerhia started out this month with getting her first hair cut! She was so behaved and sat there the whole time! No cry or fuss. If you are thinking, she doesn't barely have any hair to cut.. She did! She was growing a mullet and I did not want my little girl to look back at her pictures and say "mom, you let me look like that as a kid!!".

Second, Kerhia turned a year old on the 5th! She had a wonderful birthday party and I was very grateful for her turn out. She looked beautiful in her all white birthday dress and I believe she had a wonderful time. My daughter is growing up before my eyes. I am starting to see a lot of change.. those baby fat cheeks are thinning and she is becoming a toddler daily.

We were able to attend the sweet apple farm with Kerhia, my parents and Corey's mother. It was a blast. I was so happy my dad was in good health to attend. He has been feeling great and I believe it is because so many people cared to pray for him and I am so VERY thankful for your requests. I am also glad that Elizabeth (Corey's mom) was able to come up for two weeks from Texas. I think it is nice that Corey gets to still gets to have some exciting experiences with his parents even though they are hours away.

Life gives you so many different things in life and that is what make you who you are.

Thank god for giving me the chance to be a stay at home mother, my dreams have came true.

Can I please?!

Corey and I have not had a disagreement in the raising of our children, except the fact I would love to home school and he would love for me not too. He is set in his way on this. As a wife I am suppose to follow my husband's direction and if he believes that this is what is right, then he is right. Why is that easier to type than to do! haha!

I have gave a lot of thought to why I want to do this. I believe the school system that is provided to our children is not like it use to be. I believe that many teachers are not doing their part to teach our children to live in this world. I hear of so many college students dropping out because their high school did not prepare them for the college life. I took a college class my junior year in high school and realized I had a lot of learning to do. I did not even know how to write a proper research paper. Do not take me wrong I did have some great teachers. I just feel that classrooms are not organized anymore. The things we see in school are not fair to those students who are there to learn and to better their lives. Yes, I was not a perfect student and slipped into a lot of peer pressure but that is what taught me to be the person I am today. I remember sitting at lunch eating and studying for my next test and a kid OD'ing right in front of my eyes! I am sorry I do not want my daughter to see that! I guess only time will tell if me and Corey can come to an agreement. I am hoping he will give me at least one year to prove to him that I can do it and the children enjoy it.

Kerhia and I are working on her crayon and paper action. I am trying to teach her how to scribble on a piece of paper. She is doing a good job. She is still in the oral stage so thank goodness for non-toxic crayons! She is also a little behind on her listening. Honestly, I don't think she is. I think she IGNORES! I am putting objects in front of her to teach her what they are and to get them when I say without pointing at it. This is not working so well yet. Tomorrow is another learning day. I am skipping days so I don't feel like I am pressuring her to learn at age one. We have an eventful day tomorrow. Kerhia gets to attend another birthday party which she LOVED. She is such a social butterfly. I would love to get a group of mom's together maybe once a week to have that interaction for her. Then that gives us interaction. I decided on throwing Kerhia a Halloween party for her little friends this year. I think it would be adorable to see all them running around dressed up! Life is too short too not have fun!

Already teaching.

  Every morning that I go and wake my beautiful little girl, I realize I do the same thing everyday. We stop by the mirror for her to look at herself and I say "Look at that beautiful baby in there" and she never fails to kiss herself.  Why do I do this? I want her to know she is naturally beautiful. She was born that way. Personally, I don't have this belief. If a plastic surgeon came up to me and said I will do my service for you what would you like my list would go on. 1). My legs lipo! 2). Tummy tuck! 3). Lets put those ta-ta's back 4). I think... So list would keep going. I don't want her to feel this way. I always have. My body style I change sizes like there is no tomorrow and yes, I hate it! I can be a six for a little then into an eight in no time! Why is it that I can't teach myself what I want to teach my daughter.. This world of cover magazines has made me so naive. I want money money so I can buy that Armani dress but I need surgery first so I can get my Armani dress in a size four, please?
  So that is my goal, as I am starting to gain weight with this pregnancy to speak positive on myself so my daughter grows up hearing it and not the other. Our girls need this, I needed this.

 We got a call from the doctor's office yesterday. They made us an appointment at OSU to see a high risk specialist there to study my case. I can honestly say, I am a nervous wreck. I asked why they were sending me there and they simply said to make sure that the doctor is doing what he should be doing. I have a crazy case and he would like a second opinion. Which shows that he is a GOOD doctor. I was worried that he wasn't paying enough attention to my case but now I see that he is. Thank God for that!
 So on October 30th. We will be headed to OSU to hopefully hear only more good news! We have another appointment before then to see the doctor and to receive another ultrasound! So that will be nice to see my little peanut again. I just can keep praying that everything is safe and that in April Kerhia will be a BIG sister to a Mia or Christian.

Thank You.. Fall.

When it seemed like life was impossible and nothing good could take place, it did. As fall is arriving and the growth of this year is dieing. I realized that maybe good is coming.

Events take place for a reason, a reason that may not be known or maybe known. As I realize that God made this year tough for me, it made me closer to him, my child, my husband and my mind. I have discovered more of myself than I ever have. The good, the bad and things that I was too ashamed to see. I have learned that giving up is not the key to success but the key to no where. I believe that I am only human who can learn. I learned what it felt to love a child, to love a man, to love myself and experience death. I am thankful for what God is shaping me to be.

We are so happy that God has blessed us with another child. Having children is such an honor. To be able to give the love that you as a mother as to child is like no other. I love being a mother. I pray daily that either Mia Alexandria or Christian Alexander will grow and be a healthy newborn that I will get to hold. Well here is the update on our new bundle of joy. The due date is now calculating to April 27Th, everything looks healthy in the ultrasound. I switched doctors because my doctor before I believe did not take my case very serious. So far, I am sketchy on the new doctor. Yes, he seems like a wonderful one but he didn't seem as worried as I am. Everyone tells me to not dislike him on this note, he isn't worried because there is nothing to worry about. This pregnancy is different and I am healthy. So as this blog begins the story of a mother of a toddler and pregnant I will keep you updated. Corey believes it is a boy and I say girl. I honestly would not mind having a boy...

My dad wasn't having a very good day yesterday my mom told me. I am so worried for him. With this chance that he has cancer it really breaks my heart. I am not ready for this. My dad is too young and I still need his guidance even though I am moved out and married. I am truly glad that he was good enough health to walk me down the aisle. That is one memory of my father I know I will never forget. He goes back this weekend to get another bone marrow. I am praying that all of this is related to the spleen and they can remove it.

In My Daughter's Eyes::

"In my daughter's eyes, I am a hero.I am strong an' wise,And I know no fear.But the truth is plain to see:She was sent to rescue me,I see who I wanna be, in my daughter's eyes."

Being a mother is something that I have always remembered wanting to be. Holding my dolls, naming and brushing their hair. There is not anything in this world that can compare to the love I have for her. She is shaping me to be a better person and to live a better life. I have so many dreams and ambitions for her to become a young lady that I am proud of. Corey and I have really realized that having God in our life and marriage is the answer. We want to be better examples to her. I am still in disbelief that my little 4lb 6oz bundle of joy is going to one. As we hear the elders say "they grow up too fast." We always ignored them. I wish I would have listened. So I would be prepared. Is there such a thing as being prepared for motherhood. There are a ton of books out there and a ton of people who will give you their voice but I don't think you can be prepared. Every child is different and every emotion is too. I am helping my daughter grow and learn what the world is like. To be honest I don't want to let her know. I don't want to teach her to worry, to hate, to forgive when your hurt, and to not trust everyone. I wish my daughter didn't have to deal with this. I really wish this world was a better place. Not only am I teaching my daughter how to take on this world, she is teaching me. She has taught me more than I think any person ever has. She has taught me to be a better person.

The death of Kain was the hardest thing I ever had to deal with. God had a better and higher plan for him that was too good to be on earth. He was beautiful, so very premature but had the most beautiful features. He looked peaceful and happy as he lay to rest in my arms. He didn't look like a normal baby, he looked to be an angel. My family's angel. His death made me angry, sad and confused. "Why would God take an innocent child from me?" I don't live a sinful life and the things that mean the most to me in life are my children. April 30th, 2009 I lost a part of me. There is not a day that goes by that my son is not on my mind. I miss him more than simple words could ever explain. I wish I would have had a chance at raising my beautiful innocent son.

My children have taught me more than ever. To be strong, to not give up, to love more than I thought possible, to see better in people and to believe.